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Post by ebony on Dec 5, 2006 20:13:11 GMT -5
Ebony raised a dark eyebrow at his question. She thought it over for a moment. There were so many things that she would change if she could, but would she change what she was...?
Ebony met Sebastian's gaze, her own eyes challenging him to argue with her answer. This was one of the few things that she had complete confidence in.
She raised her eyebrow again as she started speaking. "I would not change what I am because it can not be done. This is the card that I've been delt, so I might as well play it." Her voice was hard, but she answered carefully. "I desire a change to my lifestyle, death perhaps, but I'm willing to fight my own suicide until it swamps me. Ebony folded her hands together.
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Post by sebastian on Dec 18, 2006 17:17:30 GMT -5
"I would not change what I am because it can not be done. This is the card that I've been delt, so I might as well play it."
Well that was sure an interesting way of looking at it. However, Sebastian didn't believe in fate. It could never be someone's fate to roam the earth for eternity until they suffered from such madness, complicated suicide was their only way out. No, what god would ever decide such a thing? Sebastian placed much more importance on human nature.
"I desire a change to my lifestyle, death perhaps, but I'm willing to fight my own suicide until it swamps me."
"Good. Suicide seems easy compared to this existence but oh, the benefits one can reap! You will understand soon enough, your own power and importance in the world. Imagine, in the future, you will have seen and done things children only read about in textbooks...." he said, reminiscing slightly.
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Post by ebony on Dec 24, 2006 1:51:41 GMT -5
Ebony smirked, not unkindly, at Sebastian's statement. A cold palm gripped her heart in its iron grasp, tucking whatever grief she had suffered from only minutes before away. It was the way that Ebony was, even as a human she had been able to sort of put on a mask. Ebony was fairly sure that it was the skill that lead her to nearly be engulfed by insanity and still be able to hold on.
Her eyes became cold, the mask folding over her. The crazed look that her eyes had held before slowly drifted away. Ebony was turning again into complete survival-mode, the existance that could so easily crumble at the push of a button. Ebony tucked her hair behind her ears, like nothing had phased her before. The sight was almost creepy, seeing her going from something so fragile, to. . . this, it proved just how close she was to a melt-down.
Ebony met Sebastian's eyes. "I want to learn how to not feel the deep guilt that I do now." She said, her voice was no longer that of a quiet, depressed girl. "I need to. I know that my own survival depends on it. It just seems like my mind doesn't."
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Post by sebastian on Jan 13, 2007 14:55:20 GMT -5
"I want to learn how to not feel the deep guilt that I do now. I need to. I know that my own survival depends on it. It just seems like my mind doesn't."
Sebastian raised an eyebrow. This girl seemed to be a mystery, but he was glad that she seemed to be gaining a sense of fire back in her voice. That was good. He imagined it'd take some time before she'd trust him--trust him enough to know that everything would be fine, and to let him know whatever was plauging her so.
"If I'm not too bold, may I ask, what is this guilt attributed? Is it something more?"
He imagined the source of her pain was far more complex than merely her abandoment or a sense of resentment for her creator. If he could learn more, than it'd be easier for him to help her.
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Post by ebony on Jan 20, 2007 20:27:08 GMT -5
Ebony's nails dug into the palms of her hands. Her eyes narrowed into slits. Ebony did not return to the confused girl that was tumbling off the edge a moment before but was merely standing on the edge of a cliff, looking down into the endless abyss.
She looked over at the older vampire. "If I knew, I might tell you." She said, her voice haunty. "But I do not know, or at least understand, myself.
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