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Post by Katra Maguire on Jul 15, 2008 22:04:34 GMT -5
Katra opened her mouth to respond and then closed it right away. She knew exactly where that put her. It put her in the spot of choosing. She would eventually have to choose where she stood in this war. Unless she just remained neutral. But that would be hard with her new friend and sire on two seperate sides. She hated the vampires and so she would stick with her pack and fight against peace between the two species. And her sire would fight for peace. The poor thing would have a hard life until the war started full swing.
"It puts you in a tight spot. You will eventually have to choose. I know it wont be easy either..." She muttered and took her small hand in hers. She looked at her with her piercing eyes and said, "But no matter what you choose. Ill protect you. Even if that means I have to deal with that vampire. Ill protect you." And what she said was the truth. She WOULD protect her. She didnt want the young of the werewolf race to die out.
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Post by tabby on Jul 15, 2008 22:18:08 GMT -5
Reina nodded sadly. She would have to choose. She looked up as Katra took her hand. She listened to her words and started crying silently. "Thank you Katra." Reina whispered. She gave her a hug and then pulled away. "And no matter what I choose, I'll do my best to keep you safe too." She couldn't see herself being able to continue if she allowed something to happen to either Katra or Landon. She only hoped that the two never fought each other, she had no idea what she would do then.
Her heart plummeted at the very thought of having to chose between her sire and her new friend. She thought that if it ever came to that she would kill herself before she allowed either of them to hurt the other. She patted Katra's hand. "I'm really happy I met you today Katra. You've helped me to completely forget about my mom, and the fear I had of changing soon. That's a huge help to me."
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Post by Katra Maguire on Jul 15, 2008 22:39:41 GMT -5
Katra smiled at her so gently it seemed like there was no malice in her at all. She seemed carefree and loving only. Like how she used to be. Before her life had been ruined. But she was able to open up to this girl. She liked her and maybe she had found a new friend outside of the pack. It wasnt very often that happened. Her life was with the pack and she knew that. But she would meet this girls sire later on and talk with him. Hopefully no fighting. And hopefully no vampire.
When she saw her crying she blinked and then wiped away the tears that ran down her small cheeks. She felt such compassion for her and it amazed her that her heart could fit more room into it. She loved Patrick her father figure for taking her in and her whole pack. But she could make room for her. She really could. Then she smiled gently at the topic of changing. "Dont fear the change. Its just what we do and the one night of not being in control to the rest of the days are worth it. I can smell every you have ever been and I can run as fast as the wind. Those are such wonderful gifts for the one night."
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Post by tabby on Jul 15, 2008 22:59:39 GMT -5
Reina sniffed lightly and allowed Katra to wipe her tears away. She put a smile on her face and nodded. "I'm not so much afraid of the change. I mean, yeah, I'm worried about hurting someone, but my sire said he would help me. He said that he would be there with me and that we could take precautions to make sure I wasn't near anyone I could really hurt. Although I hope I don't end up hurting him, or vice versa."
She thought about all the gifts that Katra had listed. She smiled and sighed. "I can't wait til I can smell all that. My sire told me that my senses wouldn't kick in until right before my change. That's how I can know it's coming. I'm really excited about the aftermath, I'm just a little worried. Does it hurt to go through the change the first time? Or any of the times?" That was what she was really afraid of. The unknown possiblity of pain. She may have experienced a lot of it but Reina had a lot of trouble with pain. She couldn't handle it most of the time, she only managed in the face of her brother because she refused to show him weakness.
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Post by Katra Maguire on Jul 15, 2008 23:28:16 GMT -5
Katra listened to her quietly. The smile was still on her face and she wanted to hug the girl so tight it would actually hurt instead of being a loving gesture. She hadnt smiled in so long. And who ever would have thought that a young wolf could put that smile there for so long. And she was pleased that she was excited. She herself remembered when she had first changed. It had been exciting and frightening. But she had had the pack with her. She was pleased her sire would be there. "No worrrying. He wont hurt you. And you wont hurt him. Your both safe." She said.
She gently stroked the girls hair and then tilted her head to the side at her second question. Her hand stopped for a minute and then she smiled again. "Nah. Not really. There is a brief spasm of pain as your spine cracks but its so fast you barely notice it. Eventually you come to love it. I know I did. Its really lovely being able to run with the night as a wolf. You'll love it. I know you will. You have the same kind of fiery spirit I had."
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Post by tabby on Jul 15, 2008 23:51:00 GMT -5
Reina nodded. She certainly hoped that Katra knew what she was talking about. She wouldn't be able to live with herself if she hurt anyone, especially Landon. She tilted her head into Katra's hand as she felt her hair being stroked. It felt good and comforting, she fairly purred. Then she heard words like 'spasm' and 'crack' and the stroking stopped feeling so comforting.
"Seriously? Your spine cracks?" She shuddered. Now she was even more afraid. But she calmed down as she though about it. Of course it wouldn't hurt for too long. She was definately looking forward to running in wolf form. It was going to be her favorite part of life she just knew it. She smiled when Katra compared her to herself. "Fiery spirit? I dunno about that."
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Post by Katra Maguire on Jul 26, 2008 23:16:54 GMT -5
Katra was glad she could help Reina. She always felt bad for the kids that had things tough and she could tell this girl had a hard life. But she would love the change. It hurt briefly but then it was sweet release and they could run forever. She hardly noticed it anymore. It didnt register in her mind. She just changed into this wonderful tawny wolf and could run under the moon.
She noticed she stopped slightly at the words she had used. Maybe she shouldnt have said that. But then she saw her calm down and she smiled at her comment. "You do have a fiery spirit. You may not be able to see it. But its there. And that will make you a wonderful werewolf. You will enjoy it. And I was changed around your age. I love it."
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Post by tabby on Jul 26, 2008 23:26:18 GMT -5
Reina smiled. She kinda liked being told she had a fiery spirit. It boosted her ego quite a bit. Especially since her whole life she had considered herself weak, thought of herself as the type of person that wouldn't stand up to injustice or other's sadistic actions. Though, now that she thought about it, she had managed to get herself out of her house and away from an abusive homelife.
And while she had run right into a luna-crazed wolf, that had actually turned out to be a very good thing. She just hoped that it would continue to be so for her. Though with a war coming, she almost wished she had remained a completely clueless mortal. She smiled at Katra and nodded. "Alright, I'm just going to have to take your word for it. But if it hurts worse than you say, and I'm disappointed by the feelings, I will be coming to you to complain...well, after my sire of course. It is his fault I'm in this predicament." She grinned and then shook her head to show that she didn't really believe that. Landon had been like all other wolves on a full moon night, completely out of control. So she couldn't blame him for what happened, and she didn't.
"So is, someone from your family here?" Reina asked, broaching the subject softly and with as much care as she could. She was wondering what Katra was doing in a graveyard, it wasn't exactly normal to simply stroll through them, most people came only to visit family.
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Post by Katra Maguire on Jul 26, 2008 23:50:03 GMT -5
Katra laughed and smiled at her. She was so full of life and she was glad to see that. She herself had been dead to the world after so many years of blaming herself for her family's death. She had been young, but she still felt it was her fault. She should have protected them. She should have done something. And she knew she would forever feel that guilt until her killing spree was done.
She laughed though as Reina threatened to come and hunt her down if she was lying about the pain. She knew that it would hurt but she was right about the pain. It would go away. Reina wouldnt be disappointed. She knew she wouldnt. "If you want, I can come and be there for the first time you change. I know it will help if a girl is there." She winked.
Then her smile faded and she looked down. Why was she here? She sighed and nodded slightly. "My parents are. My sisters body was never found after the attack...." She said. It was mostly for her sister that she grieved. That little girl was only seven years old. Why? She hadnt done anything. Why had she been killed?
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Post by tabby on Jul 27, 2008 0:04:19 GMT -5
Reina shook her head. "No, no. My sire's coming with me and though I would love to have you there...it might cause complications that should not be brought up at this time." She looked down and mumbled so softly that she could barely even hear herself. "I don't want to have to choose between you so soon." Or at all if she could help it. If it were up to Reina, Katra and Landon would never meet. Ever. Quite simply, she would do everything in her power to prevent it. Even if it meant following Landon everywhere he went.
She sighed as she sensed Katra's mood darkening, becoming sorrowful. She should have known better than to ask about family. How stupid was she? "I'm sorry Katra. I shouldn't have asked." She wrapped her arms around Katra again and rubbed her back gently. She could tell that it was the sister Katra was most worried about, the sister that kept Katra up at night, the sister that cause Katra the most guilt. And Reina saw no problem with that, if the situation were reversed she was sure she would feel the same way.
"I know it must be hard for you to think about it, let alone talk about it. I won't bring it up again. Promise." She squeezed Katra and loosened her arms enough that Katra could pull away unhindered if she wanted to. "Unless you need someone to talk to, and then know that I'm always there for you."
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Post by Katra Maguire on Jul 27, 2008 0:18:05 GMT -5
Katra could tell she was trying to prevent her and her sire from meeting. She wondered why but she wouldnt ask. It was her choice to decide not to have her there. And she knew that her sire would take care of her. But she was confused slightly about what she said about her not wanting to choose between the two of them. How would she have to choose? They were all werewolves but she wouldnt ask. She wasnt that nosey.
She blinked when Reina hugged her. She didnt get much hugs from people. Only Patrick ever hugged her and his hugs had become so much less because of the problems coming up. She knew she shouldnt mourn over that but she did. Patrick was like her father. Then she remembered Ella. She loved Ella like a mother as well. She had just recently been with her here in this very place. Ah the bonds of a pack.
She chuckled slightly and looked at Reina. "Dont worry about it. Lots of people bring it up. Half the people in my pack have the same sob story. Most of us had family that was killed. It makes us hard and cold. I dont want to be like that...but I cant help it. So thank you for just listening to me." She touched Reina's cheek and sighed.
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Post by tabby on Jul 27, 2008 0:26:44 GMT -5
Reina nodded solemly. "It's horrible that things like that happen. But really, it's just like humans. They kill eachother too. So it's not a big surprise that you would want to go after the vampires just like we go after murderers that are mortal." The 'bad' side was making sense to her, sort of. But the 'good' side made sense too, considering some of the werewolves, and vampires too, simply went after ALL vampires. Not just the ones that kill their families or other's families. They just automatically assumed that all vampires killed innocents.
"And listening is no problem. What else am I going to do with my days? I don't have my old life anymore. So as long as I'm not doing anything, might as well make myself available as emotional support right?" She brushed her hair out of her face and shrugged. "When life gives you lemons and all that jazz."
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Post by Katra Maguire on Jul 27, 2008 0:33:39 GMT -5
Katra smiled at her. It was very true that humans did the same. All you heard about were murders now a days but it wasnt the same thing as the battle between vampires and werewolves. Vampires just killed millions. They needed it for food so they said and she knew that deep down, all of them enjoyed the killing. It was in their nature. Just like it was a wolfs nature to love the woods and running free. You cant change someones nature just because you want to. Its what they were born with.
She chuckled at her and smiled. "Being open for people emotionally helps. Sometimes you cant realize the effect your words can have on someone. Lives are hard. But you just have to stick up your chin and growl back at it. I was taught something totally different from the life gives you lemons. I was told that if life gave you lemons..throw them back and tell life to make its own lemonade. You need to make your own luck in this harsh world. It wont come to you." She shook her head.
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Post by tabby on Jul 27, 2008 18:40:59 GMT -5
Reina nodded. "That's true. So I promise you this," she smiled up at Katra, "I will do my very best to make my own luck in life." She reached down and ran a hand over the grass on her mother's grave. "I'll make the best of what I've been dealt and turn it all around." She looked at Katra again and put a determined look on her face. "I'll even make happiness happen. I mean, sheesh, I'm already pretty much there."
"I'm going to keep making friend's like you, and I'm going to find myself a niche in this world that will make me happy, because that's what I deserve." She grinned. "Thanks Katra. I was starting to feel really down about this whole thing recently and now I'm going to turn it around, starting with my attitude."
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