bloodthirsty[so frightening] [OPEN]

[graciemae]

[ooc- sorry, guys. I am soooo busy lately. But I'm trying to be on as much as possible.]

She wanted so badly to run, but the words made sense. And she could feel herself on the verge of collapse. It was like the one time in soccer she hadn't drank enough fluids, and she'd collapsed on the field. But this was worse. It hurt to refuse, but the emotional pain was almost as bad.

Finally, she let herself go limp, even thought the trembling still racked her body. "How do I....?" Even though her thoughts were repulsed, her body was wanting it more than ever.

[Ellie]

Lars bent down next to her. "Just close your eyes sweetie, okay?" This might be difficult. "Now just think about it, think about the taste of it in your mouth, the feeling. Just let your feelings take over, your instincts..."he wispered into her ear. He hoped that would be enough, her vampire verginity was frustrating him. He didn't know how else to explain the proccess to her, without scaring her off again.

[jeanxmulduin]

[no problem ^_^]

Jean's fingertips were barely dusting Renee's shoulders now, her eyes were closed.
"Just do what comes naturally. Accept it and it'll feel wonderful. Reject it and it'll be forced. Do what they do in the movies, it'll be second nature." And with that, she released her fingers as if urging her on, opening the cage of the lion, just willing her to be freed from the prison.

[graciemae]

She closed her eyes, listening to them. She wanted not to think of what she was doing. She slowly breathed in and out, hoping to just empty her head of thoughts. She could tell Lars was beginning to get frustrated. How, she wasn't sure, but she just knew. She took a deep breath, then leaned her head down next to the body. The scent was there, oh so strong. She almost winced, but instead, let her teeth sink into through the skin and into a vein.

After a moment, she paused, exhaling slowly. As a human, she would cut, say, her finger, and automatically - instinctually - she'd put her finger in her mouth. The taste of blood had always been a metallic, tangy flavor. But the taste was amplified a million times in this moment. She quickly dove back into the taste. After a few more moments, her hunger was satisfied. She could feel herself still trembling as she came back to her senses, but now it was caused by only the emotions that raged inside her.

She looked at Lars and Jean and breathed shakily. "That was...." She blinked. She felt almost normal, except that she still sensed the beating hearts inside the creatures that were in the alleyway. "Am I....always going to be hungry? Is there....any other way?" She didn't even know how to express herself. It was like asking a carnivore how to be an herbivore, in a way.

[jeanxmulduin]

"Are you still as hungry as you were before you fed?" Jean asked her with a small smile. She reached out, putting a hand on her shoulder. "You did well! There are other ways. You can hunt animals, or my preferred method; bloodbanking. I promise you nothing will be as satisfying as a live or recently dead human, but those two methods usually do the necessity part.. Take out the rapists in the alleys every night, it's a buffet, trust me. Not to mention public service." she took a beath hoping not to scare her. "Life goes on. It's just another thing on your to-do list, and after a while you won't even notice it until it's neccesity. You must[i/] accept who you are, you can't fight it, or you surrender already." Jean smiled again, reassuring.

[Ellie]

"Right", he said not really sure what to add to the speech. "Do you feel better now?" Lars was extemely hungered. He hadn't eaten in a while and was about to be in the same situation Renee was a few moments ago if he didn't get his turn. It was dreadfully tempting watching her feast like that. "As long as you feel OK..."

[jeanxmulduin]

Jean smiled at both of them.
"I'm famished, group hunt anyone?" Jean offered to them both. "We could give you some great tips so you're not left in the dark, no pun intended." she said to Renee

[Ellie]

"Sound great to me!" Lars shot up. He was unable to control his hunger for much longer. If he wasn't carefull he might end up snatching a passerby on the street...which wouldn't be good...Nope. He waited for the other two, still being as poliste as possible. It would be easier with Jean there to help...Renee on the otherhand might just weigh them down, but he'd have to deal.

[jeanxmulduin]

Jean sniffed the air.
"Right on time. Smell that? That's the smell of three drunks ready for a hit and run. I vote next alley for fast food!" she said posing to leap on top of the building to go to the next alleyway. She tugged briefly on Renee's wrist and then let go.
"Come on, Renee. It'll be fun."

[graciemae]

She watched them, but she was afraid. She wanted to be so comfortable with what she was. But she couldn't be. She shook her head, declining their invitation. She swallowed, then finally found her voice. "No, I'll catch up with you guys later. I need to let my brother and father know I'm okay." She smiled, and waved at them, hoping they would understand it wasn't that she didn't like them. She really was going to find her brother.

[Ellie]

Lars wanted food but he didn't want to leave Renee to fend for herself in her unstable condition. He made his decision and pulled out a cigarette. They could usually slake his thirst for a while. "I'll come with you", he said, "I promise I won't let anything happen to you, and I swear I wont do anything to your brother.

[graciemae]

She looked at Lars and smiled. She appreciated his kindness. She wanted to hug him, and tell him that she was grateful. She didn't want to harm her brother, and he'd be able to help her. She nodded slowly. "He might be at the park, so that's where I'm headed. He likes to be outdoors." She thought about her brother for a moment. Then she touched Lars's shoulder, and raced off to the park.


[ooc- the thread is already started with Michael...]